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O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 3:14pm on 31st January 07

Rs.40,000, can you believe that. iPho baby, they don't deserve me

So I want to buy Sony Ericsson's P990. Just came back from the market, wanted to check the price so that I could bring that much money on Thursday. I would have bought it today but one of my friend wants to go with me and he is not free before Thursday evening. And guess what, I want to be the king of heaven too and its seems that I can't have both.

Don't ask why.

There were other phones but the screen size was too small for me to read webpages and ebooks on them.

And now I am being told to wait.

Oh! well, a phone(even iPhone) is far more small than feelings and if I can pass the test in case of my love, this won't take away the smile from my face. Infact, after the initial surge of chemicals of shock and disappointment of a gadget lover, Allah helped me through logic and soon I started enjoying the fact that I can after all just belong to iPhone and to iPhone alone.

Happiness, sadness, anger, peace, confidence, fear, enjoyment and boredom, are all the extremes of two opposite sides of our mind between which Allah moves us like a pendulum to see what we will do.

Its day after night and its night after day. It keeps changing and never remains the same. We keep changing.

Tests and results.

We keep keep going deeper.

Pass or fail. Heaven or Hell.

And man, I enjoyed the thought of blogging this all the way back to home because I am greatful that I have internet with search capabilities and a blog and I love it.

Thanks.

And thanks for the existance of iPhone, iPod U2, iMac, Cyber Shot DSC R1, lots of pirated ebooks, music and my readers. Its just perfect.

; )

Catch me if you can, ; )

So the Zionists are tracking me. They are using my mobile phone to see where I go. Where I might lead them.

And did I led them somewhere?

Only into the wall.

While they are tracking me, they are also following me.

Fuck them.

And I am just toying with them. Poor bastards. Since I walk alot, they too have to walk around me and some times four plus hours of walk is not what they wished for.

Fuck them and their legs too.

And thats not it.

Recently, after eight months of them following me all around the city and me acting as if I don't know they are following me and tracking my cell, I just scared the shit out of them few days back.

You see they try to keep their distance from me so that I don't see them. There friends who are tracking my cell and thus my location keep them updated. The fuckers thought they were deceiving me. But Allah was my guide and thus I was two step ahead of them all the time.

So few days back I took a path that was not easy for them to use to follow me. So they waited till I came where they could easily see me. Among people and lights. But as soon I turned a corner I turned my phone off.

And their friends couldn't tell them where I was and they were far away.

I was invisible some where in Clifton and I turned my cell on after about an hour in downtown.

And they have no idea what I did during that time. Or whom I met. After that I repeated it again and became invisible for almost half an hour. Once again they didn't knew what to do except for cursing themselves. Bastards and fools. They thought they could beat Allah.

The middle finger.

It is so much fun.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 30th January 07

This is how I try to do things and leave the rest to Allah

So I am married. Or atleast I have a mistress. And her name is iPhone.

But there is a problem. I don't know if I will be going to have sex with her. I mean she is expensive and it seems to me that I can not have her for the next two years.

So, I have a need and I must fulfill it. It hurts me that I can not have her right now but I have to follow my mind and not her sexy hips.

So I have decided to buy a smartphone.

I need a smartphone because I need an audio device(can't buy iPod right now either) and a reading device(I have started taking photogrphy lessons). I have Nokia's 1100 mobile phone but carrying one device in place of three is very easy. I wanted to buy it earlier but I didn't had the money and when I had the money, It would not allow me to buy one. Wanted me to wait. Testing.

So I discussed it with my friends and my little sister to see if they too agree with me about a smartphone being my need. If they would have said no, I would have asked the reasons. But they agreed and so I searched the net and it came down to four devices. On the top, as you must have guessed it, was the iPhone. Yes I can't please her(sorry baby) but I also didn't wanted to keep her out. Want her to be part of every decision I make.

; )

Twentyfifith and my choice(only because I can't have you, my baby, iPho(want to show my loyalty)) is the Sony Ericsson P990.

The other two where the Sony Ericsson W950 and the HTC Excalibur

Now among the twentyfifth, twentysixth and twentyseventh(come on, you really thought that anything other than iPhone can take the first 25 solts on my list of better mobile phones), I choosed P990 for its functionality. My needs. Namely, Screen size, touch screen, QWERTY keypad, Radio, Wifi, 9 hour battery life and because it was Sony. Second to Apple. W950 was far more beautiful and had a 4Gb space but P990 had much more that I needed. And yes it is not as beautiful as my iPhone or W950 but it fulfills my needs. And that is enough. Should be enough.

I might have gone for HTC Excalibur. I liked its sporty looks more than W950's but it ran Windows and if something else could fulfill my needs and is easy, I would prefer that. P990 had a 64mb Memory Stick Duo Pro card with it and to get a 4GB or 8GB MSD card, I will have to pay more but need is far more important than money.

I compared the sizes of the five phones and you can see the result here. P990 is the thickest and I wanted something as thin as iPhone. But I had a need and following my heart to get myself in difficulty by waiting and trying to get the iPhone, would be a sin.

I will be buying P990 on Thursday, if Allah wishes.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 29th January 07

The essence of a happy life

"Common experience is the gold reserve which confers an exchange value on the currency which words are; without this reserve of shared experiences, all our pronouncements are cheques drawn on insufficient funds".
French poet René Daumal(The Columbia Dictionary of Quotations)

In Quran we are ordered to live our lives according to our needs, to be happy in little and to keep it easy.

Simplicity is the key.

I have been trying to do that. But old habbits die hard and it took me time to find my groove. My style. My way to live my life according to my needs, be happy in little and keep it easy. I had to learn through trial and error since there was no one to guide me and Allah didn't wanted to do it directly. It took me seven years to learn my style according to Islam. But it won't be that long for you since you are not alone and you won't have to repeat my mistakes to learn.

So today, once again, I sat and decided what is it that I wanted to do in life and how should I do it.

If you remember, I thought over this and posted about this last month too(I just happily shattered a life long dream of mine) and decided that I don't need to travel around the world. That I just want to learn more about Computers, Movies, Photography, Astronomy and Botany.

But since then I have been testing it and it just didn't felt right. Something was amiss. Just couldn't put my finger at what was it that was not right.

Yes, this is one of Allah's ways to teach us. To strengthen our resolves. Our confidence. Thats the reason why Allah brought down Quran on our prophet Mohammad(pbuh) slowly rather than all at once.

And yes through experience, Allah has once again made me a better person.

Few days back I saw a dream in which I am driving a brand new Jaguar XKR 2007 in my room : ) and I am trying to get the car out of the door, which is 2/3 wide compared to the width of the car. Then I stop and the scene changes and I am looking through a pile of books and saying that, 'that book is not here'.

At first I couldn't understand it but after thinking about it for few days I knew what it meant.

It was an indirect guidance.

As I said that I wanted to get out of Pakistan to travel around the world. I am trying to get out of my room. But then I decided to make Pakistan my home and go out only if there is a need that can not be fulfilled here. So I stop trying to get the car outside my room.

Then I am looking through a pile of books and saying to myself that, that particular book is not here.

Computers, Movies, Photography, Astronomy and Botany.

What was wrong?

Too much knowledge.

At the time I was thinking that I needed to learn computers and movies to fight against Allah's enemies. I wasn't trying to master all of it, just know enough so as to understand how to use them. Photography to earn my bread. And Astronomy and Botany because in Quran Allah orders us to go and see how It originated creation. Evolution.

In Quran we are ordered to travel around the world and see what Allah did to those who were before us. To go and see how Allah originated creation. To go and earn our bread and to fight with our money and our lives.

In Quran we are ordered to follow our minds instead of our hearts.

I followed my heart and was commiting a sin.

Good thing that in Islam mistakes are fogiven and all I had to do was ask for forgiveness and I was sure I was forgiven.

And that was it.

Thats what was amiss. Too much knowledge because I like to learn and I want to learn more. More than what my need was.

So I sat back and looked at my life. Took notes and drew lines. Discussed it with my little sister and came to the following conclusions.

That we should live according to our needs, be happy in little and keep it easy. That all a person needs to do is to earn the bread through a profession which ie, she or he mastered.

No need to try to gain knowledge of things that do not have a top priority in your life. For such things let it happen rather than trying to get it done. What you need to get done is to earn your bread and learn how to live your life. No need to master every thing. Just your profession and religion.

So all I need to master is digital photography. I can absorb other knowledge as it happens but I do need to learn about digital photography in detail.

We all need to master our religion but in Quran Allah says that all we have to do is to read it and Allah will teach us. So we don't have to worry about trying to learn Islam. Just read the book in a language you understand and leave the rest to Allah.

And anything else can be done by someone else who has the knowledge of that profession and earns bread through it.

Its simple, its easy, its little and its logical.

I master one thing and you master one thing. I do for you and you do for me. You answer my questions and I will answer your's. I trust you and you trust me. And so it will be easy for us to live in harmony.

And this is how the system of the world works. There is something for every one because we decided to be happy in little. Because we decided to follow our mind and not our heart. We will have time for others. Family, friends, customers and students.

Because knowledge was free and it wasn't difficult for us to know what was happening, we were not afraid anymore. We were happy and free.

Trust me.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 11:00am on 29th January 07

We don't know the future till it happens. So, our observations are Allah's signs and that is enough for us to keep living on and keep obeying. From time to time it won't be easy but it won't be hard either. All we have to do is to obey, discuss and pray.

Ok!

I am supposed to tell you why I stopped blogging for more than a month.

Yes I would like to confess that I was afraid, hurt, angry and alone.

It still hurts and I don't think I can go in detail.

So I am going to be short.

Trust me if you can. You know me and I am sure you won't question me about it.

I was told that four women will be my wives. I was told about them and their emails. And over the months, they did things that made me believe that they accepted me. My mails. But two of them have gotten engaged. The way they got engaged is very weird(it looks like as if its a darama, a show) but since they are engaged and wish to be with someone else and since they have not contacted me, I want their happiness.

I stopped mailing the other two because if its a 'darama' then I would be violating the rights of those who 'acted' engaged for some reasons(which I know and want to keep secret). It was a need and they had to do it. Matter of life and death.

But I am not sure. Its never 100% surety.

And since I wasn't sure about them anymore, I was confused, angry, sad, hurt, lost and alone. They mattered alot to me. But love was more important and my love wanted their happiness and so I had to accept what I didn't wanted to.

Forget them and die, marry the other two or wait to fall in love with someone else.

So after crying, I waited. 90% I am sure that the two of them were a test and I have to forget them. The other two, I am hopping that they never read my mails. 10%, I can't decide. There are signs, things they did, that I can't forget. I will never forget. So by now I am ready to move on. Death or someone else. I am at peace.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 25th January 07

I want her pregnant and I want her Great Ulterior Identity to have 640480 stars

Call me crazy or nuts, but I just got married.

And she is one hell of a wife. Very sexy, good looking and man she sure is one of a kind.

Her presence is like heaven. Let me touch, I ask and that smile is so kissable.

But she won't open up till I rub my hand on her stomach to turn her on.

And man when she turns on and opens up, its such a beautiful sight.

The front is just amazing but the back is worth licking too.

Truely one of a kind.

Let me rub my fingers over that crack. I cup her and start licking even with my fingers. Man she shines even with the thought of my touch.

But she won't let me get in to procreate little ones inside her. But sex with her takes a whole new meaning.

And God the way she moves. One call and she starts to dance.

My sexy kitten. On the move.

A Touch here and a touch there and her smiles satisfy my needs.

Her sound is just like music and her heart connects with mine wirelessly. Her eyes can capture me and I see a net of different universes inside those pearly windows.

The understanding between us is so perfect that all I have to do is to just make a gesture and she knows what I want.

She is perfect and she is mine.

They call her iPhone.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 25th January 07

You can use bombs, guns, magic, knowledge, money, sex, fear, happiness and this system and I will just use you to kill you.

I am back.

I... AM... BACK.

: )

Why was I away? Because I was told to stop blogging. Now I have been asked to resume blogging. I guess what ever had to happen or had to change, has been done. Or may be 90% complete and 10% I am not sure if its going to complete or if its going to change back. Can't say what it is.

And I am still hopeful

And I am happy I am back. Its just wonderful.

I missed blogging alot. Ok! not that much, as much as some other things but I did missed it.

I just love blogging, Internet and Life. And I love you all.

And while I was not blogging I was fighting the war. I know who the blood leaders of the Zionists, are. I know where they live and how they live. What diseases they have and what their future plans are.

On the top its just two of 'em. They are the ones who are controlling President Gloria Must-Be-Nuts Arroyo and the rest of the Zionists. Don't want to say more as I don't want them to know that I know.

; )

Amazing what your good deeds can do and amazing what a weapon googling can be if Allah blesses you with its knowledge.

Its Allah and Its helping the faithfuls.

Now what am I planning? I am planning nothing. I am waiting. Lets see what happens. I might die or I may live to continue. But I am wishing that I may get a chance to act like 007 and get close to those two. So close that I could smell them. And its then that I would taste their blood. Yah! slowly, very slowly, I will give them death. And I want them to feel the pain because once they were bored and decided to play a game. Forced themselves into a house of a God fearing person and ordered all of them to undress. At gun point they ordered the son to fuck his mother, father to fuck his daughter, a brother to fuck his sister and a servent to fuck his/her master or they would kill them. The poor males couldn't even think of it, so the bastards would order them to act it. Just the movement. And they would laugh at their tears. And then they would kill them.

Fuck them.

Oh! ya, it was just a game to them and they get erection after all this.

And now I am going to play a game with them. A game they mastered.

Fear and death.

Welcome to the world of justice. My name is Fahad Fateh and I am here to take care of Allah's creations.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine and ten.

HERE I COME.