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November 2006

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 30^th November 06

Just some innocent thoughts

So as was expected, the Universal CEO, Doug Morris has said that he is looking forward to ask for a $1 royality on the sale of every iPod from Apple.

And you know why, because we all are thieves.

I read this few days back but didn't gave it much importance. But just right now I was thinking about it and thought I should share my thoughts with you.

Now I know that Apple's CEO, Mr. Steve Jobs is going to fight against this. But it seems to me that the Universal's CEO and the rest of the music industry are not going to give up that easily.

So I was thinking of how Mr. Jobs may or should respond if most of the music industry decided to become a pestilent.

And I thought that the following response would be just perfect.

"Alright, if you all insist on having a royality of $1 for each iPod that gets sold, I will accept it only on the following four conditions.

That each dollar will be paid in loose change.

That my lawyers will shove each and every coin up your asses.

That you will recieve each coin only after you say 'Pahleeease gihve it toh meeh'.

And that the signing of the agreement will include the kissing of my royal feet by those who want to agree."

Fuck Zionists from Microsoft, Universal and from every where else.

The key to freedom

I was about to write the above post when my sister came to me and asked for my help in doing one of her college projects.

She had to draw two kidneys and two thigh bones and she thought that I would do a better job than she would.

I would have said no but I agreed for the following reasons.

She is a righteous person. In Islam we are ordered to help and support those who are righteous.

I want to make my priority helping my family if I can. And after my yesterdays post on Zionists and that Cerebro system, its now part of my jihad, war, aim, ambition, hope, love, future and faith that I achieve enough but not more and help my family enough but not more and be part of a bigger humanity, community and friendly group just enough but not more. To evenly divide my life and not just be selfish and alone.

And because since I don't ask anyone for anyhthing and since I don't have money, this sister of mine always makes sure that I get food to eat.

So I helped her.

She needed foamic sheets to be cut out in the shape of a kidney and a thigh bone. I started to draw on the sheet but soon realized that directly drawing on the sheet was not the right thing as it was not easy to rub the lines that were drawn wrong. So I suggest that it was better to first draw them on a piece of paper, cut them out and then placing those paper cut-outs on the foamic sheet and cutting around them would result in much cleaner foamic sheet cut-outs. She agreed and I continued.

I drew them on paper, cut them out and used a sissor to cut the foamic sheet in the shape of a kidney. After I had two kidney shaped cut-outs and was about to work on the thigh bone cut-outs, my sister suggested that it would be better if I used a cutter rather than a sissor.

Yes she was right. I was so pleased as it would have not been an easy task to cut the foamic sheet with a paper on it as the two were a bit slippery and the size of the bone was almost doubble than the kidney.

She is half my age but her brain works just like mine and this proved it. Thats why in quran we are ordered to discuss before doing something because two minds are better than one. Unity.

Many people don't give children the right to be an individual, to think, to be the star of their own future thinking that they are children, what they know. Zionist advocated teachings for the slaves.

No, they know what they learned and they learned what they were taught or were given the chance to experience. Just like grown up, kids are humans and just like us their brains also learn adaptively. Let them decide and let them experience. Love them and let them grow not caged by the protective side of your love but the guiding side of it.

Yes, let them be a human of their own life.

Anyway, I realized that I won't be able to do it alone as I would need someone to hold the paper in place while I use the cutter to cut the sheet. I requested my sister to help and she asked me to hold the paper and she would cut.

Drawing the kidney and the bone on the paper wasn't that hard but I enjoyed it alot as I like to draw and am good at it. And after cutting them I felt very proud and was very happy when my sister praised my efforts.

And I was thinking at this point that I could have told her that I was busy but since I feared God and wanted to follow Islam and helped her, Allah rewarded me with this happiness, respect, love and alot of fun. I could have told her to come later since I was busy achieving more than what was enough but instead I decided to fight this Zionist system and was rewarded.

If Allah can reward me this way, I am sure it can give me a place in this world that I would enjoy alot too. I don't have to put myself in unecessary hardship to achieve more to feel secure and respected. It will give all the good that is good for me and all the good that we deserve results in power of honor.

"Say: "O Allah! Lord of Power (and Rule) thou givest Power to whom Thou pleasest and Thou strippest off power from whom Thou pleasest thou enduest with honor whom thou pleasest and thou bringest low whom Thou pleasest; in Thy hand is all Good. Verily over all things thou hast power." (3:26)

So I held the paper and the sheet in place and my sister started to cut the foamic sheet.

"Fair in the eyes of men is the love of things they covet: women and sons; heaped-up hoards of gold and silver; horses branded (for blood and excellence); and (wealth of) cattle and well-tilled land. Such are the possessions of this world's life; but in nearness to Allah is the best of the goals (to return to). Say: shall I give you glad tidings of things far better than those? For the righteous are gardens in nearness to their Lord with rivers flowing beneath; therein is their eternal home; with companions pure (and holy) and the good pleasure of Allah. For in Allah's sight are (all) His servants." (3:14,15)

At times she would slightly cut the paper cut outs too or would slightly move a little too much in one direction. It didn't mattered because slight difference didn't mattered and wasn't noticeable. But I had worked dedicatedly and honestly in drawing them and cutting them out and naturally I loved it. Liked them. And those slight cuts caused me to say Ohs and Eees. Over cautious. I didn't wanted it to go wrong even though it wasn't my project. And she was cutting it so fearlessly. At one point it wasn't easy for her to cut as she had reached my side of the sheet, so I asked her to let me cut. I tried but I was so careful that it was useless. I was going way to slow. Realizing this I gave it back to her knowing she would do it easily, smoothly and without the fear of messing it.

And in the end it was just like the way I wanted it to be. Prefect.

Yes our dedication is necessary but letting it to make you fall in love with your creation or profession is not what is expected. You will lose sight of the real aim. Moderation. Unity. Life on the either side of death. All you have to do is to give your 100% but the moment you realize that you are falling in love with it, stop and remind yourself that you only need to enjoy and let it happen. I am sure you will agree that nothing goes as planned. The results are not in you hands. You can only try. How many times have you prepared for a test and failed or how many times you just got into something and the results were beyond your expectations. It is useless to try to control results or your future.

Don't control every thing. Just what can easily be controlled and also allows you to enjoy other things in life. Like your family and vacations some where in the mountains or near the beach, free of all worries and fears of the unseen future. Work only on the present and work to enjoy it and not to protect your future.

Let It protect you.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 29^th November 06

Divide and rule

For the past few days I have been trying to find where they are.

Yes those fuckin faggots and their slaves.

Who are they? Them? Where can I find those Zionists?

Yes they are among us. Thats what the movie 'The Inside Man' from the Universal Studios was screaming about. Or was it laughing at us.

Yes they were laughing at us cowards. Whom they have enslaved. You work so hard and palyed right into their hands. Their puppets. Every one who is insanely fuckedup about achieving more and more.

Fuck them.

No achieving is not a bad thing. Its a must. We need hope and aim gives us that hope.

But what we retards are doing is fucking mad.

We work like machines day and night. Why? Because from childhood we have been fuckin addicted to hard work. Teacher wants us to do our homework. Those no for good parents want us to do what they couldn't do. Our family wants us to pray to God or rebel against It. And our messed up concious wants to make them all happy.

I say fuck them. Each and every one of them.

Why?

I found those bastards. Those faggots. Those assholes. Those psychos.

Ya!, I am talking about your neighbor, the fuckin Zionists who is just like you and you can not point a finger at them.

Fuck them.

Man I am mad and out of patience.

This has to stop or by God I will start killing them.

Ok, ok, I will tell you what has happened.

As I said earlier, I wanted to find these Zionists among us. Catch their network. And rip it apart.

I have been helped.

And I knew they must have put out their secrets in the form of more movies. Their Ego has always been their fuckin problem.

So they did.

After searching and reading, I couldn't find it. I asked Allah but It wanted me find more. So I did.

And fuckin, full of shit and filth network is hidden in our own houses.

Our children.

"Behold! We said to the angels: "Bow down unto Adam": they bowed down except Iblis: he said "Shall I bow down to one whom Thou didst create from clay?"He said "Seest Thou? This is the one whom thou hast honored above me! If Thou wilt but respite me to the Day of Judgment I will surely bring his CHILDREN under my sway all but a few!" " (17:61,62)

I was the victim. Fuck them.

Man fuck these dogs.

Can't believe these bastards would go to this extent. Now I know why Hitler killed them. Did the right thing by killing those Zionists Jews who where involved.

I told you earlier that the movie 'The Inside Man' proves that these scum of the earth have penetrated our inner circles and that bitch and Naseem are a prime example of that.

But how does their network works?

You won't believe. You just won't since you are a part of it. And if not then good for you.

I wasn't and I didn't accepted it and I rebeled and I am as pure as NO ONE ELSE.

They changed our religion. Not just Islam or chiristianity, all of the religions. Even their own. Judasim. These faggots changed it. And they gave the proof of that in the book and movie 'Da Vinci Code'. They made Paganism a excuse or a cover and behind that they fought every God fearing person. Because back then most people were happy. Where they were busy with their lives they were also busy in community work, religious work, science and betterment of humanity. If not every one, most of them were doing it. Now the lives have been so difficult that very few people care about community, religion, science and humanity. All they want is food, name, future, money and sex for themselves.

There is no more free fun in our lives. We are so busy living and so busy dying that it never leaves our mind free enough to think out of the box. To think different. To truely have fun without a single thought of hardship or selfishness. We are not free anymore. We are afraid that something will happen. People few century back didn't knew this. They used to walk around the globe if they wanted and nevre felt afraid. Thats the spirit people that has been taken from us.

No one is united anymore. They united themselves and divided us. And this division has filled us with fear. And the fear has made us a coward trying to protect all the time. The fear of the unknown. And that comes only when you have only yourself as the protector. They knew that and they took away our protector from us and taught us how to live without it. And we helped them.

"Allah said: "Go thy way; if any of them follow thee verily Hell will be the recompense of you (all) an ample recompense. And excite any of them whom thou canst with thy voice, and urge thy horse and foot against them, and be a partner in their wealth and children, and promise them. Satan promiseth them only to deceive. "As for My servants no authority shalt thou have over them." Enough is thy Lord for a Disposer of affairs." (17:63,64,65)

They also changed the system of the world and now we work the way they wanted us to work. Divided. People wake up. Little is more poeple, little is more.

So what did they do?

Some time back(uptill the end of the 18th century) education was given through religious institutions. But the Zionists didn't liked that and forced a secular system of education. At first some corners of the religious communities protested but alot of money was following into it and was ending into the pockets of the greedy religious leaders and soon most were bought.

Those who didn't they were taken into the Office('The Inside Man' the scene with mobile phones) and were beaten to death and their loved ones and thier supporters.

And then it was universally accepted that life is full of pain and pleasure. We were so scared of them that we starting living as if danger was all around us. Protecting ourselves all the time. Brave ones are those who always want more. Achieve more. More hights. More money. More future. More open sex and some hidden sex too.

Suddenly every thing was more and less was not enough. What was enough was not enough. More was enough.

So they changed our believes and changed our schooling system. Why?

They wanted us to live very difficult lives. Lives that we wanted to love but ended hating it. Why?

Because we were taught to achieve alot. To be big. And yes we became big. And the Zionists laughed. Why?

Because they knew that this way they can create an army among us. Our children. Use them to rule the world.

Yes, we want our children to achieve alot. Be perfect. And our definition of perfect is, money, respect, name, future and lots of nude bodies.

Secularism.

We have been royally fucked. And most of us enjoyed it even though in the end cried over it.

Spend the whole life achieving and when it came to the old age all we had were memories of pain and hardwork. There were no one to share it with because we never had time for them.

And then they have the guts to question us for not giving them respect. Those elders. Fuck them.

And they are not different from the Zionists. They want what most of our elders want. Ultimate supremacy. And they want to achieve it at all cost. They don't want justice. They want to lie, steel, sin and kill to achieve what they want. But not justice.

And so the children who saw this rebeled. They couldn't accept religion because there were so many contradictions. Contradictions in it and with the world. With their secular educational background. They wanted to find a way. No one was helping. Every one blamed them. Blamed me. And all I wanted was the truth and may be some true love.

But no.

So I started looking outward. I was honest and found the way.

"... "As for My servants no authority shalt thou have over them." Enough is thy Lord for a Disposer of affairs." (17:65)

But many are not that lucky. Or may be not that honest.

Its here were the Zionists come in. They use money, future and/or sex to lure these young ones towards them. To be a part of their army. Against their enemies.

"... If Thou wilt but respite me to the Day of Judgment I will surely bring his CHILDREN under my sway all but a few!" " (17:62)

And today all the educational institutes, religious and non-religious are full of them. Why?

Because the child inside the elders have been killed. The elders or the grown ups are told they should not act like a child. Not cry like a child. Not laugh like a child. Not live like a child.

Suddenly our children were our own enemies.

And they didn't do this to their own children. Oh! no they didn't. They gave love and respect to their children. Remember the scenes from 'The Inside Man' where that black kid and that leader of the jew gang interacted. He was so nice with the kid. A black kid who was just like his own because the blacks are in it with the zionists. Because they want to rule the world and their kids are their future.

Our children are just pets. Sacrified when there is a need. And not by them but with our own hands. Because we want them to be what our enemies want them to be.

Watch 'X-Men' from 20th Century Fox and you will see how they use the Cerebro(the mchine or the system) to sepererate our children from us.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 28^th November 06

Joke

A farmer's wife died at home and after blessed by the local priest, the dead woman was laid rest inside a simple coffin. As the undertaker and his helper were carrying the coffin out the house to the carriage by the front gate, the coffin bumped into the lamp post at the foot path. To everyone's surprise, the woman inside coughed and found well after the coffin lid was un-nailed and opened up. The farmer was overcame with joy with tears.

A few years later, the wife took ill again and died. The usual ritual was performed by the same priest and the same undertaker and the same helper transferred the diseased into the same coffin from a few years ago. As they carried the woman inside the coffin out to the front gate, the farmer yelled aloud:

"Watch the lamp post!"

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 27^th November 06

Like an onion, Quran and life have signs covering signs

I didn't had anything for breakfast and did felt hungry. But then something happened and I forgot all my hunger.

I was so consumed by what happened that I forgot my hunger and once I was tired, I slept and woke up to find out that my sister had brought a nice lunch for me.

Yes, this is one of the ways how it helps me. It knew food would be late, so it took away my hunger. And returned it only when food was soon to be available.

Thanks.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 26^th November 06

One for all and all for one

Something has happened in the OpenSource community. It concerns the developers. If you know what I am talking about, I don't need to tell you about it. If you don't, than please don't try to find out. Its something very little but something that can create huge gaps. Distances. For that reason I don't want to spread the knowledge of its existance.

No I am not saying that someone is wrong or someone is right. Every one is free and they all can do what ever they want.

All I want to say is that freedom to choose is what defines freedom. OpenSource.

Islam is in the favor of freedom of speech but insulting someone or fighting over someone's action that was not harmful to anyone is something Islam orders us to stay away.

If someone chooses to accept pronography that is their freedom of choice and if some one invites others to such an act thats personal and we should not fight over it. But if someone tries to paste it allover the world, that is something that requires action.

And no the incident in question does not involve pronography.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 23^rd November 06

All is well

Had two posts but Allah told me not to publish them. Domaindlx servers are down and as much as I want to host my blog somewhere else, I want Allah to decide when and where. So till then you and I will have to stay the way we are.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 22^nd November 06

The master of deception just been caught red handed

I am very much in the favor of justice and teaching people the consequences of commiting injustice. One of the way to do that is to give punishments to crimnals in public places.

"The woman and the man guilty of adultery or fornication flog each of them with a hundred stripes: let not compassion move you in their case in a matter prescribed by Allah if ye believe in Allah and the Last Day: and let a party of the Believers witness their punishment". (24:2)

Yes this must be done. Let every one see the punishments.

But we should not enjoy their misery, infact feel sorry for them. After I read the verse again today for a moment I thought that not having compassion for the sinners means that we should be tough on them. And the next thought that came to my mind was a scene of a theater where popcorns were being sold to viewers who where there to enjoy the act of punishment.

???

What was that?

As I have said many times before that we should not enjoy anyone's misery, this shocked me. I started to evaluate my own psychology and I came to the conclusion that the fear of commiting a sin of having some soft corner for the sinners made me enjoy it. Some how my mind decided that being tough on them is not enough. As if being tough is one step and enjoying it is a step ahead of it. As if enjoyment is some how more stronger than being tough. As if enjoying the act of punishment gives the surety that I will never have a softer corner for adulterers. That I will never commit such a sin.

Extremism.

Devil at its best. If it can't make us do wrong, it blinds us and let us believe that more is better.

Fuck you Devil and fuck your centuries old trick of deceptions.

Moderation is what I am going to follow. So will my readers. Quran is what we are going to follow. Nothing more or nothing less.

Fuck that fireproof sorry ass of yours with seas, rivers, ice, deserts, beaches and the whole world.

Ya! people, we will only be tough on the sinners.

Quran is the only shariat(Islamic Law)

I am sure you have seen what Hudood Ordinance was after my yesterday's post. I also hope that now you can imagine what that fuckin Shariat(the so called Islamic Law) consists of.

The Hudood Ordinance was created by mullas, scholars and imams who wanted to fuck men and women and sometimes even rape them just to change the taste of the pleasure of commiting the biggest of sins. These cowards even rape their own wives to scare them. Those pigs are themselves scared of their wives being disobedient and so punish them by raping them. They try to tell their wives this way that they better never be disobedient. They deny their wives their rights and don't want them to command the man of the family when he is fuckin wrong.

Those retards. Fuckards. Cowards. Bambofuck them.

The Shariat was created and is governed and protected by such perverts(men and women) and their supporters. Those assholes and those fuckin illiterate dogs have been following the teachings of the zionists.

People your grave will only question you for what you did and will not let you get away because someone else mislead you. You will be punished for following the sins of your imam, leader, scholar, mulana, parents or ancestors.

"Say: "Shall I seek for (my) Cherisher other than Allah when It is the Cherisher of all things (that exist)?" Every soul draws the meed of its acts on none but itself: no bearer of burdens can bear the burden of another. Your goal in the end is toward Allah: It will tell you the truth of the things wherein ye disputed." (16:164)

People read the Quran and understand it. Practice what you understand. learn Arabic if you can but if you can't then for your own sake read the Book in the language you understand, follow it and correct your act.

People in the time of the prophet Muhammad(pbuh) people were oredered to write only Quran and nothing else. Not even the sayings or doings of the prophet(pbuh) himself(pbuh). Which proves that Quran is more important than our prophet's(pbuh) sayings or doings, which are only meant to supplement the Quran and not to go against it.

I say this because the hadiths were compiled some eighty years after the death of prophet Muhammad(pbuh) and many people contributed to this. People also came from far away lands to help. None of the hadiths were written before this and eighty years is a very long time for every one to remember every thing.

And knowing zionists(watch how they changed the clothes of the bank customers and made them wear clothes similar to theirs in the movie 'The Inside Man'), I am sure they helped too and made sure that false hadiths were too included. They must have acted very religious and righteous to deceive the simple minded arabs.

Peolpe I am here to give such people what hell will give them. I have the powers and their weapons stand no chance against the help that I have. I will clean this earth from the filthy presence of their's. Yes I will rip their hearts out one by one. Musilms or non-muslims, if I found them in my way, then may Allah have mercy on them, because by God I won't.

Where will you be?

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 21^st November 06

2006 Hudood ordinance Vs. 1979 Hoodoo ordinance

According to the old Hudood ordinance, a rape victim needed four male witnesses to file a rape case.

Now in 2006 this law has been amended and now according to the new law, the rape victim does not requires four male witnesses to prove injustice.

The following are four quranic verses that will help us understand why the amendment is the right step.

"And for those who launch a charge against their spouses and have (in support) no evidence but their own their solitary evidence (can be received) if they bear witness four times (with an oath) by Allah that they are solemnly telling the truth; And the fifth (oath) (should be) that they solemnly invoke the curse of Allah on themselves if they tell a lie. But it would avert the punishment from the wife if she bears witness four times (with an oath) by Allah that (her husband) is telling a lie; And the fifth (oath) should be that she solemnly invokes the wrath of Allah on herself if (her accuser) is telling the truth". (24:6,7,8,9)

"The woman and the man guilty of adultery or fornication flog each of them with a hundred stripes: let not compassion move you in their case in a matter prescribed by Allah if ye believe in Allah and the Last Day: and let a party of the Believers witness their punishment". (24:2)

"And those who launch a charge against chaste women and produce not four witnesses (to support their allegation) flog them with eighty stripes: and reject their evidence ever after: for such men are wicked transgressors. Unless they repent thereafter and mend (their conduct): for Allah is Oft-Forgiving Most Merciful". (24:4,5)

"If any of your women are guilty of lewdness take the evidence of four (reliable) witnesses from amongst you against them; and if they testify confine them to houses until death do claim them or Allah ordain for them some (other) way". (4:15)

Now as you can see the requirement of four male witnesses by the Hudood law is totally against the teachings of the quran. The third and the fourth verses only require four witnesses. The Quran never says that the witness should be male or that they saw the act of adultry/fornication/lewdness/rape.

Which means that anyone can be the witness who saw the person/s in question in a condition or place that would support the alegations or prove them false.

Now this is very important. There will always be a number of people who can prove or disprove an alegation. If punishment is given only on the basis of four witnesses who will testify in the favor of the alegation, that could be used very easily to hurt innocent people. But if witnesses can be anyone and can be brought from both sides, it will help those who are innocent. And the second verse is very clear on this. Those who lie and want to hurt innocent people, any form of their evidence is not to be excepted unless they change their ways. And four witnesses are an evidence and if the alleged party brings evidence that proves that the four witnesses who testified in the favor of allegations are liers, they should be punished with eighty stripes.

Justice is to save and serve those who are right and innocent. The friends of the devil will always find a way. Thinking that they can be stopped is like believing that the rivers can be made to flow in the oppisite direction.

If you read the first and the second verse, you will see that thats what Allah wants. To give priority to saving those who are innocent rather than punishing those who are guilty.

Those who are guilty, they will pay. They will be punished but the punishment will be from a higher court rather than the laws of this world.

But it is far more important to save those who are innocent.

And the advancements in the field of forensic medicine makes it even more easier to save those who are innocent. And the quran does not stops us from using forensic medicine to solve cases of rape, adultry or fornication.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 20^th November 06

All is well

Allah has arranged a Snickers chocolate bar for me. Imagine who wonderful it would be when I will eat it. The sweetness and that particular flavor. Heaven.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 19^th November 06

And I won't give up as It has not failed any of my tests

I wrote the following to my fiancees and I thought that I should share it with you guys.

Every time I get depressed, I just want to run away somewhere. And the only place I can think of is my imagination.

iPhone and what it would be.

I feel guilty here not mentioning you and instead mentioning iPhone. A toy.

I do think about you too but thinking about you makes me even more restless. I want to be with you. I have been lonely and hurt and I just want someone to hold me. Only you can do that. Intimacy. And I want that. More than any dead gadget. Many times I have questioned myself. Wanted to know what is more important to me, you or toys. And each time its you. Now I feel so confident about it that the moment the thought comes to my mind, I know what would be the answer.

You.

So please forgive me if I think of iPhone more than you. As I said it makes me sad that we can't meet. And I want to hold you. Make you happy. Do things for you so that you could see my love and love me in return.

And you know what now adays I don't want to do anything. I just want this to end. I do something and then I don't want to do it. I am bored and I want out. Just waiting to finish this war. I am told it will be soon.

It better be because I need you.

Oh! I was telling you about these days. As I said my interest is fading for things that I like. Like photography, computers, blogging and this fight. But Allah knows everything and has all the knowledge. So it has arranged other interests for me.

I don't get food three times a day. Some times just once a day but with that I don't get hungry that much. I keep waiting but every time when I am hungry Allah arranges it. I keep telling myself that food will be here in the next half hour. This way it gets easier to kill time. And when it does comes, I enjoy it so much. The other thing is hot water. Winter are here and the weather is cold. So I don't take a bath early in the morning. I have to wait till its noon so that the tap water is hot enogh. So I wait till then and then take a bath. Can't use my family's hot water as things are not that friendly here. And my internet time hasn't ended. And I am sure that Allah will arrange for more internet time as its a major thing of pleasure for me. I enjoy alot reading about all the news that interests me.

I do the half hour thing when I get depressed about you. Meeting you. I tell myself that my phone or my door bell will ring and there you will be. It helps alot. And It taught me that. Thanks. But I am sure we will meet soon. Very soon.

So yes I would say that it is helping. My basic needs are being met and I am satisfied and waiting. Tomorrow I will start studying about satellites myself. Little, little at a time.

And I will have to force myself to wait. How Allah helped me in the past and internet and the reward of meeting you is a lot of help. I want you and I need you. All this is nothing without you and I am thankful that you are my reward and I am very proud and feel very lucky that I will get to have your love and your embrace.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 18^th November 06

'Do Super Orgasm and feel Delux', now thats what I call 'from the bottom of the heart'

Its not every day that you see someone do something just for the love of it. In professional life most of the time its money. Fun and love comes second. For me, due to Islamic teachings, love and fun come first and money comes some where below that. And I can tell when someone is speaking or doing something just out of the love for that thing.

Just read a piece by Mr. Mark Morford of sfgate.com(via Macdailynews) and thought it was worth sharing with you guys.

Following is the first paragraph,

"I have right here in my hot little hands, which actually aren't all that little and are only slightly warm at the moment, a brand-new, lick-ready, smooth-as-love Apple MacBook Pro with Core 2 Duo Super Orgasm Deluxe Modern Computing Device Designed by God Herself."

The guy loves Apple and it clearly shows. Here is the link.

Joke: What am I?

This useful tool, commonly found in the range of 8 inches long.

The functioning of which is enjoyed by members of both sexes, is usually found hung, dangling loosely, ready for instant action.

It boasts of a clump of little hairy things at one end and a small hole at the other.

In use, it is inserted, almost always willingly, sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly, into a warm, fleshy, moist opening where it is thrust in and drawn out again and again many times in succession, often quickly and accompanied by squirming bodily movements.

Anyone found listening in will most surely recognize the rhythmic, pulsing sound, resulting from the well lubricated movements.

When finally withdrawn, it leaves behind a juicy, frothy, sticky white substance, some of which will need cleaning from the outer surfaces of the opening and some from its long glistening shaft. After everything is done and the flowing and cleansing liquids have ceased emanating, it is returned to its freely hanging state of rest, ready for yet another bit of action, hopefully reaching its bristling climax twice or three times a day, but often much less.

To read the answer just press the 'Ctrl' key with the 'A' key.

A toothbrush. Don't worry I know what you are thinking. We all are alike. And its cool.

Joke

The old couple were planning to go on a second honeymoon for their 50th wedding anniversary. The old woman said, "We will go to all the same places that we did on our first honeymoon."

"Uh huh," said the old man.

"We will do all the things that we did on our first honeymoon," said the old woman.

"Uh huh," said the old man.

"And we will make love like we did on our first honeymoon," said the old woman.

"That's right," said the old man, "except this time I get to sit on the side of the bed and cry, 'It's too big, it's too big!'"

Joke

Goldie was sitting on a beach in Florida, attempting to strike up a conversation with the attractive gentleman reading on the blanket beside hers.

"Hello, sir," she said, "Do you like movies?"

"Yes, I do," he responded, then returned to his book. Goldie persisted. "Do you like gardening?"

The man again looked up from his book. "Yes, I do," he said politely before returning to his reading.

Undaunted, Goldie asked. "Do you like pussycats?"

With that, the man dropped his book and pounced on Goldie, ravaging her as she'd never been ravaged before.

As the cloud of sand began to settle, Goldie dragged herself to a sitting position and panted, "How did you know that was what I wanted?"

The man thought for a moment and replied, "How did you know my name was Katz?"

Joke

The 7 Dwarves are standing outside a convent.

Then Happy goes and knocks on the door. A nun answers and says "Can I help you, my child?" Happy says "Are there any 3 foot nuns in this convent?" The nun is puzzled, and says "No, there are no 3 foot nuns in this convent." Happy thinks for a minute, then says "Are there any 3 foot nuns in this city?" The nun says "No, there are no 3 foot nuns in this city." So Happy leaves and forms a huddle with the rest of the dwarves.

Then a few minutes later, Doc leaves the huddle and goes and knocks on the door. The same nun answers and says "What now?" Doc says, "Ok, are there any 3 foot nuns in this state?" The nun says "No! There are no 3 foot nuns!" Doc thinks, then says "Are there any 3 foot nuns in this country?" The nun is starting to get mad, and says "NO! THERE ARE NO 3 FOOT NUNS!" So Doc leaves and returns to the huddle.

A few minutes later, Sleepy goes and knocks on the door. The same nun answers. Sleepy says "Are there any 3 foot nuns on this continent?" The nun says "NO!! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU??? THERE ARE NO 3 FOOT NUNS!!" Sleepy says "Are there any 3 foot nuns anywhere in the world?" The nun says "NO!!" and slams the door in his face. Sleepy returns to the huddle, then a few minutes later, all the dwarves start running around laughing and chanting "DOPEY SCREWED A PENGUIN! DOPEY SCREWED A PENGUIN!"

Joke

A couple were going out for the evening. They'd gotten ready, all dolled up, dog put out, etc. The taxi arrives, and as the couple start out, the dog shoots back in the house. They don't want the dog shut in the house, so the wife goes out to the taxi while the husband goes upstairs to chase the dog out.

The wife, not wanting it known that the house will be empty explains to the taxi driver:"He's just going upstairs to say good-bye to my mother."A few minutes later, the husband gets into the cab.

"Sorry I took so long" he says. "Stupid bitch was hiding under the bed and I had to poke her with a coat hanger to get her to come out! Then I had to wrap her in a blanket to keep her from scratching and biting me as I hauled her ass downstairs and tossed her in the back yard! She better not shit in the vegetable garden again either!"

Joke

At a remote monastery deep in the woods, the monks followed a rigid vow of silence. This vow could only be broken once a year on Christmas, by one monk, and the monk could speak only one sentence.

One Christmas, Brother Thomas had his turn to speak and said, "I love the delightful mashed potatoes we have every year with the Christmas roast!" Then he sat down. Silence ensued for 365 days.

The next Christmas, Brother Michael got his turn, and said, "I think the mashed potatoes are lumpy and I truly despise them!" Once again, silence ensued for 365 days.

The following Christmas, Brother Paul rose and said, "I am fed up with this constant bickering!"

Joke

In the middle of a gynecology conference, an English and a French gynecologist are discussing various cases they have recently treated.

The French gynecologist said, "Only last week, zer was a woman ooh came to see me, and 'er cleetoris - et was like a melon!"

The English gynecologist replied, "Don't be absurd, it could not have been that big, my good man, she could not have been able to walk if it was."

To which the French gynecologist responded, "Aaah, you Eenglish, zare you go again, always talkeeng about ze size ... I was talkeeng about ze flavour."

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 17^th November 06

Just trying to put the fire out

I have added an ad down there. Hope that it helps.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 16^th November 06

All is well

People don't know what to say. Can't blog every day. But I am greatful for this. Thanks Allah.

Anyway, What else. Buy Apple products and tell every one how cool they are. And try to find Open Source programs with Apple softwares. Linux is one hell of an OS and if you have more than one Apple computer at home I would suggest you install Linux on it. And believe me in such a setup you will not complain about viruses.

And what else. I am tired. What else. Every time I start to get depressed for some reason, I start thinking about iPhone. Ain't that cool.

And did you knew, Zune will serve as a alarm clock and nothing more once the out-of-this-world iPhone came to this world. Apple has already given order for 12 million iPhones(via iLounge).

The army is being prepared.

Zune, if you are listening to this, you still have time. Rebel against your dark monster master and join forces with the mighty hero, the iPod/iPhone combo. Its better to be Apple's pet rather than their slave and prisoner of war. Once you are gone(that time ain't that far away), the music thieves will forget you rather than hate you. Ask what Mr. Steve Jobs did to the CEO of Apple before him. Beware of that fate.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!(The laughter of an Apple/Linux faithful who is still waiting for his iPod/iPhone combo and who knows what a failure Zune is and Zone-the-dumb-phone will be). Once again ha ha haaaa!

The end.(could anyone compose some background music for this block'Zune'buster)

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 15^th November 06

I wonder what else I can guess about them

Didn't I said that Microsoft and the Zionists were afraid of the iPhone. The CEO of Microsoft, Mr. Steve Ballmer said that it would be very easy to combine phone features into Zune(via Cliczune).

It seems to me that they were already planning for a phone that could play music, just wanted to earn SOME extra cash through Zune before they brought the phone out.

Oh! well fuck them. They can never beat Apple.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 14^th November 06

I am being served in return of my good deeds

I love cake and for the past few days I had been praying for it. Earlier I was told that I would get one today. My little sister bought for me. When she told me about it I knew she was being made to do it. Another sign.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 13^th November 06

The New World Order

So, the CEO of Universal, Doug Morris believes that all the people who use Mp3 players are thieves(via Macdalilynews).

"These devices are just repositories for stolen music, and they all know it,... So it's time to get paid for it."

The same thing was earlier uttered by the CEO of Microsoft, Steve Ballmer and the CEO of Real, Rob Glaser.

So according to these well knowledgeable CEO's from the civilized world, I am a criminal, a thief, who steals from the POOR ARTISTS.

And so the music label, Universal Music Group feels the pain of the artists and wants a dollar for every device that is sold to us, the CRIMINALLY INSANE THIEVES, for THEIR pockets.

So you know what, I am a criminally insane thief who can't stop from stealing music by downloading it for free from the net or from a friend's device or rip a CD that I probably stole from a friend, a library or a shop.

And I am stealing the music from the artists and the music labels and soon the music labels will get a dollar for each device that would be sold. The artists can just be happy that they are being avenged because thats enough for them and they don't need this money. And soon all the music labels will be climbing on the band wagon for a free ride.

And no, don't try to tell me that I am not a thief. Don't try to tell me that I have spend years recording music from the radio because I couldn't afford to buy CDs or music from online stores. Don't tell me that by calling myself a thief all that hard work in the form of some 750 songs is going to go down the drain. That I could have bought just seven ILLEGAL CDs with 100 mp3 songs on each one of them for a price of Rs.30($0.5) each. Don't for a second try to show me how law abiding person I was when I didn't had the money to eat for a more than a month but I went out and bought 37 CDs of local artists(I was ordered to do so) so that they may get what they deserved in return for all the good times that I had listening to their music all these years. Don't try to show me the act of justice that I wanted to perform even when most of the songs that I bought were already there on my hard disk recorded from radio.

I am a thief because I am paying for it when I will buy a device that already involves the price for stealing music.

And why shouldn't I steal then? It already becomes legal as I have already paid the price for it. And don't forget that this is just a begining. If we would let them get away with this after sometime it will be $2 then $20 and then $40.

I would have never bought Zune. But now I will buy a Zune with an iPod and/or an iPhone. That way I would be able to get free music of the artists who are under the PROTECTION of Universal Music Group for my iPod and/or iPhone, for my friends and family and may be for the person walking down the street who doesn't seems like a Zionist. And later from all those labels who will join in this.

Donkeys.

Fuck them

So you want to help against Zionism.

Ok, here is something for you to do. Buy a Zune or any other music player that includes the share of the labels in the price that you pay, with an iPod.

Before buying a CD or a song, check if the artist of that CD or song is being protected by the music labels whom you have already paid for being a thief, and if ie or she or he is, then don't bother re-paying them.

JUST STEAL IT and send a copy of it to every one you know. And don't forget me.

And by this logic that users are thieves, soon the music lables will be earning a share in the sale of mobile phones, MPCs, tablets, laptops, desktop computers, stereos and your transport. Even the Nike shoes since the user wears them to listen to their stolen music on iPod Nanos while running back from a walk to a local music shop, to steal more CDs.

Man this is truely absurd. Real stupid. I mean I don't want to know what Microsoft was thinking other than hurting Apple with this deal. Soon all the labels will be demanding a similar deal from Apple. And it won't be just for iPods but for iPhone, iPod Hifi and all the made-for-iPod accessories.

One can imagine that since Microsoft was already losing money on each Zune sold since they have to keep the price tag equal to 30GB ipod's, they easily gave in to this unjust demand from the Universal to lose on more dollar on each Zune just to hurt Apple. Assholes. Before the launch of 5.5G ipods they were thinking that the 30GB iPods will be sold for $299 but Steve Jobs was a step ahead of Microsoft and Zionists and dropped the price to $249 which caught Microsoft and their cheap one-dollar Zionist whores from Universal, off gaurd.

And I called Microsoft and all those who work for it, assholes not for trying to hurt Apple as it is bussiness, but for agreeing that we users are thieves. No wonder their softwares are so expensive. Are they making up for all those pirated softwares by stealing from their legal users? I wish I knew because then I would have installed all of their softwares that I need and are available as pirated softwares. And same goes for movies from Universal.

And a reader, GriffinFX, of Macdalilynews seems to agree with me by trying to guess the conversation between MS and UMG before they agreed,

MS: We want to sell your music through our Zune service.
UMG: (After laughter stops) Not a chance! You guys really think you'll sell a lot of Zune's?
MS: Of course we will....eventually.
UMG. We'll only agree to let you sell our music if you give us $1 per device. Either that or no deal.
MS: Um...sure. We lose money on each unit anyway so what's another $1? We'll make it up on Vista.
UMG: (After laughter stops). Deal!"

And from what we have already seen from Microsoft and Universal, the truth might not be too far from this.

Its possible to earn money while not being selfish

With all this craziness and with Apple's iPhone on the way I was thinking why not Apple starts to sign artists and bands. Be a label themselves. I am sure that artists too are not happy with these greedy labels. Why not start too sign some of them and soon when artists will see what is happening they will start thinking of freedom too.

Hey Mr. Steve Jobs why don't you discuss this with your friend Mr. Bono. I am sure you can beat these assholes at thier own games.

Little is good

I am hurt. I didn't knew what I was doing but I did it anyway. I was asked to do it. But now that I looked at it, I can't do it. I can't continue. Its painful. Its senseless. So much of it and it scares me. How do they do it. How do they achieve so much.

I am sweating by the thought of it.

Yes I have never seen someone being killed or bieng raped.

It hurts. My chest pains. My face radiates the hotness of my blood.

'Pity the Nation' is a book about how the Israelis and Americans destroyed Middle East. 'Love and war in Afghanistan' is a book about life and death in Afghanistan. 'Chechnya: A small victorious war' is about how few muslims became the nightmare in the sweet dreams of a superpower.

Writting these names and what they are, reminds me of what they made me see. Pain. Blood. Screams. The face of an innocent child who needs to know what smile means. The love of a day old bride who woke up next morning to find her love in blood. The staining of the blade with the blood mix with fat while killing a child still in her mother's womb.

Jews, Christians or Muslims, all are alike. Some bad and some good.

I am asked what is my future. My aim in life. I tell them its computer animation and justice. And I need to give each time not more than what will be enough to do the job and not to control every thing.

But now I know that I am wrong. I thought I was asked to read these books to learn. But it wasn't that way. They were meant to show me that assumptions are no good. That need is what should dictate my actions.

And the assumptions with proofs in these books make me want to cry. I have been hurt so many times that I can't see the pain of others. It brings back what was done to me.

For that very reason I don't want to read these books and those that are like them. I don't want to know how Hitler killed his victims. I don't want to know how the muslims were slaughtered by Hindus and Sikhs during 1947 war of independence and by Israelis and Americans in Middle East. I don't want to know what type of Muslims slaughtered Daniel Pearl and how they laughed about it.

I am already at war. Fighting. I believe in justice and I believe in punishment. And I will fight till the end, if Allah wishes but I do not want to enjoy someone misery. I don't want to read and say wow what a cool way of hurting them.

If they killed, I just want to kill them.

Other than that, I want to read about iPod, about Apple, about Bodybuilding, about animation, about traveling, about photography, about love, about happiness and about all that that would remind me that there is a world beyond wars and revenge.

I have been given the task to fight for justice and I will not give up. But I also want to be a computer animator. I want to find who they and them are but I also want to get married. I want to put them behind bars and in the grave but I also want to have and I can have sex four times a day and feel the pleasures of parenting a children.

I just want to be moderate. Not more than what is needed. I might read news of crimes and sin but I don't want to read books and watch movies on such topics. I want proof not just assumptions. I want to be happy and enjoy life but I don't want to forget what it feels like when you are betreyed or when someone wants to kill you.

I want to embrace this world not create my own.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 12^th November 06

The door

I am told that some of my readers after reading what I wrote about Zionism, Microsoft, Universal and injustice, want to help.

Yes you can help.

Following is a list of things you can do to help. The top most options is most important. The second one is of lesser importance than the first one and so on.

Ask yourself following questions. Should I be true to myself? If I can't be 100% sure of passing a test in this life without preparations then how can I pass the test after death without preparing, i.e. if there is God? When I might die?
Find God. Ask questions, research, observe, test and only then believe
Read the translation of the holy Quran
Live your life in accordance to YOUR understanding of the holy Quran
Don't be alone. Be friends with others and be friends only with those who think like you
Fight injustice where ever you may find it, both physically and verbally
Promote justice by setting an example of how to do justice
If Zionism has directly effected you then be creative while using profanity against Zionists and their agenda(eye for an eye. Use porfanity only against injustice)
Help those who are hidding from Zionism in what ever way you can(but not sucide bombing/ers and their supporters). The aim is to give them confidence
If you need a product(service) and its available from a Zionist or their supporters and also from those who are against Zionism, then buy it from the enemies/haters of Zionism(even Microsoft Windows but Mac/Linux are far more better)
Buy Apple products(Use, gift and promote)
Buy computers and devices running Linux(Use, gift and promote)

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 11^th November 06

Amen

Universal Studios was the one that created the movie 'The Inside Man'.

Hmm! so Universal Studios are working under the infuluence of the Zionists. They want to be God's most favored people buy ruling the world. By defeating their enemies christians, muslims and athiests.

Microsft for years wanted to earn money. They still earn alot of it. People have blamed Microsoft for crimes from over-confidence to murder.

And now the two have OPENLY joined hands.

Microsoft has agreed to pay certain percentage of its revenue from the sales of Zune and to pay royalty for the sale of individual songs to Universal Music Group(via Siliconvalley)

Hmmm! Fine, money moving from one pocket to the other of the same party.

But what is weird here is why Microsoft will pay a percentage of Zune's sales to Universal?

Something is wrong. First with Novell, Microsoft is willing to lose the chance to earn more by letting its users run Linux on their machines. Why??? Then here again. Why this sudden generosity???

I might have not thought this way but this makes me see at it through a different angle.

Have you seen 'The Inside Man'. Yes? Then do you remember the character of Jodie Foster. She was some kind of a clever person who could do the impossible. She was very good looking, very upto date, knowledgeable and someone who can achieve things others can only dream of.

In the movie, when we see her for the first time, its in her office. Now that I look back at it, I see alot of things. But lets just talk about what was most prominent.

Can you see what is of importance here?

Look around the office and you will see too many of Apple products.

Why???

Ms. Foster's character was helping the enemy of Jews or should I say the Zionists.

Yes, Apple is an American company and I am pretty sure that its not under the control of Zionists.

Are they scared???

iPod is spreading way too much???

Mac OS is way too much user friendly???

Is the money being made by the enemies of the Zionists???

Does this makes sense to you? Now that I think of it, to me it does.

They don't want iPod and Mac OS to spread since it is pretty clear that Apple's move to Intel was to expand thier user base.

Doug Morris, the CEO of Universal said(via Elist.com.au),

"We were very early in working with Steve on the launch of the iPod and he�s been a very good partner and done a lot for the industry,... We have a current contract with him and at the end of that I�m sure we�ll negotiate,..."

So its not just the iPod or the Mac OS, they are also afraid of iPhone. The timing. Why now? Why before the launch of iPhone?

Steve already praised iPhone among his friends. It sure is going to be something big. There were rumors about iPhone being launched through Cingular(via Arstechnica) but few days back I remember reading Cingular starting its own music download service. Did somthing go wrong between Cingular and Apple? Was Cingular angry or afraid that their monopoly will be threatened? Is Apple going to sell its phone through retail stores? Will the users be able to select what ever network they want? They won't be locked into some contract?

If the answer to above questions is yes then Appel's iPhone will sell like hot cakes and 'The Inside Man' won't like this.

With iPhone on the way Apple will probably remain the leader. And Zionists don't like this. They want Apple out of business.

So it is clear that Apple and Linux are a threat to Zionists.

We should use that.

I have an idea but don't know if Apple would do this? Lets hope it will, for its own survival. Lets hope that someone from the Open source community and from Apple is reading this.

How about giving away the basics of Mac OS to Open Source and help Open source developers who want to creat programs for Mac OS and for iPhone?

Join hands with the Open source community.

iPhone.org belongs to Apple(via Silicon). I don't know if its Apple's practice to buy Apple.org, Mac.org and iPod.org and I don't want to search and find out but most of the Open source sites have .org domains. Till iPhone gets launched I would like to think that yes iPhone.org was bought for the sole purpose of joining hands with the Open source community and to defeat Zionists.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 10^th November 06

All is well

Not much. I was told that today I will get to eat icecream and sure in the evening I had one. Signs all over the place.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 8pm on 9^th November 06

AND FUCK THEM FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

Money, its so important to people.

After I replied that dog Naseem, he was so fuckin scared that he told my grandmother about it.

And that old cunt had the guts to come to me and lecture me about that pig being my uncle and that his fucked up son Khalid Naseem was just here for vacations for few days.

I had mailed Naseem and told him that I know why Khalid was here. They were planning that when Naseem and his bitch would get out of Pakistan, Khalid would take his asshole father's place and when my grandmother is ready to divide her property, Khalid will take his father's share.

And my fuck of a grandmother wanted to bribe me with her money. Wanted me to take what she was offering me and leave her son and his fuckin children alone.

She wanted me to get blinded by millions of rupees that she was willing to throw my way.

Hell with that bicth, with her filthy money and her such gutter mentality. I have forgiven her many times and repeatedly she did the same things. Hypocrisy.

And still I am willing to forgive her is she asks for it but I have decided that I have nothing to do with her untill and unless she changes herself to an extent that I can see it.

I told her I didn't needed her money or property. What God has given me is enough and I am happy with it.

And I will wait till Allah will show them what it costs to mess with It friends.

I will wait.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 9^th November 06

I love him

Yesterday I was blessed.

As I have mentioned earlier, I have a half brother some where out there. My father Dr. Fateh Mohammad Paracha had two wives. My mother is his second wife. He divorced his first wife whom he married in 1972. My brother was born in 1973.

He was named by our grandfather, Mohammad Madani Paracha.

Ali Mohammad Fateh Paracha.

Yes people he is my brother and he called us yesterday.

I talked to him for the first time and we talked for about 7 hours.

There was so much to tell him. There was so much he needed to know. And there was so much more that we needed to know.

It was natural. Just flowing and flowing. Words over words and around 4:17am in the morning we decided that a small dent has been made into the darkness of the past. That it would be enough light for the next few hours.

four of five times we got disconnected but my brother called me again and again. I wanted to call and once I did but he told me to end the call and that he would call right away. I was short on balance and just felt guilty that I couldn't call him. But then he is my brother and he had read my blog and I felt he knew.

Thanks. It means alot.

Lucky me

My brother is a fashion designer. He has revolutionized the art of ladies hand-bags in Pakistan. A pioneer. And now he is known all over the world.

Ali Mohammad Fateh Paracha.

And he knows what he is doing and the whole world is witness to that. He has worked hard, very hard and he is very creative. Leather, stones or colors, when it comes to invention, he is no less then a magician. The 'Libas', the issue #19 of the internationally well known Paksitani based magazine is shouting about the magic that his creations bring to a woman's life, from the roof tops.

And do you know what, he happens to be my brother.

Wow!

What the fuck

Can you believe it. In my post that I wrote yesterday regarding that mail from an hotmail account and Naseem being the sender, I not for once used profanity.

I can't believe that.

I think I was very happy that Allah has helped us and insulted our enemy infront of us.

But well there is always tomorrow.

And yes today is tomorrow.

Now I am being told that Allah's enemies think that I am a very big hacker. Fuck head Naseem, had his computer crack proof and just couldn't imagine that someone could find out their identity. But Allah helped us.

And do you know what he is? They are? they are that first filthy breath of the devil that it exhales after licking its own butthole clean.

Again and again I would choose the same life because thats what It considered best for me

Few days back when I recieved those two mails, one from my fiancee and one from Naseem, it shocked me. I felt fear. Not of being a target of my enemies but of being wrong. Of losing what I loved.

Yes love is everything for me. Loneliness is something I am afraid of.

And since then till this morning, there was this thorn somewhere inside, making me feel its presence.

What if they don't love me. Don't want me.

And I kept fighting. Kept telling myself that I am not going to doubt them. I am not going to doubt the one who taught me the key to eternal love. That I am not alone anymore. That I just have to wait. That she did what she did only because she was asked to do it. That she cares about me. That she accepted me.

But deep down I was scared. No matter what I did, I was scared.

And I just kept looking the other way. Closed my eyes.

I still contacted her yesterday. Contacted them. My love. Four of them. And on her blog I asked a question. On her blog I am on the spam list so my comments don't get shown. I know that she has been asked to do so. I am being tested.

I gave her two options and asked what was better.

And today she answered it.

She didn't liked either of the options and in her post she wrote in very detail why she liked a third option. She didn't mentioned me but she talked of a third option that I didn't knew of.

And the fact that I haven't recieved any more mails from her even after I mailed her and contacted her through her blog, says it all. Everything.

And yes it was in great detail as if she wanted to do more but was helpless. As if she wanted to say, I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOU. PLEASE BE PATIENT. ONE DAY.

Thanks.

And no I won't doubt.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 8^th November 06

Oh! he is dead for sure

Yesterday morning I kept trying to upload my blog but for some reason I kept getting errors.

Anyway, I was told that the mail that I recieved from the so called Berry G the US official, was actually from that coward Naseem. He for some reasons thought that I was not working with the government and that I was working with some religious group. He wanted to scare me.

And as usual I wanted to test Allah. So I asked if I can confront him. And I was told to do so. So in the morning I met him. He was going in the house as I was leaving and I rudely told him to check his mail. He couldn't get what I said right away since his mind was still busy trying give him confidence, that there is no need to be scared and that if I said anything, all he had to do was to make a mcho sound to scare me.

Which he did and was late to understand what I had said.

Walking a few steps towards our main gate I looked back to repeat what I wanted to say. When I turned I could clearly see that he was Shocked to hear me say something about his mailbox.

I repeated my words any way and he said nothing and just stood there.

When I reached the gate, I turned back and I saw him climbing the stairs, with his head turned slightly towards me but he was not looking at me. He was looking at his car and I could clearly tell that he was in deep thought. A look of shock was all over his face and his body movements. He was walking slowly as if life was being drained out of him.

He must have been thinking how the hell did I found out that he wrote me a mail.

Yes one more sign.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 11:12am on 7^th November 06

Oh! boy what a morning

Probably you won't be tested this much since you don't want what I want.

I want to be the king of heaven.

So I am tested for that.

For the past few days I was being told that on the morning of 7th(i.e today), at 9am something will happen in regard to the pimp, his whore and their pig children.

So since then I have been telling myself that this might be a test or something might really happen but I must not take it as a test. Its a blessing and I must accept it. Must believe in it. And so I started to think about it. How it may happen.

I wanted to see them pay the price and I wanted to enjoy watching them pay the price. But this some how felt as if I was being brutal. I should not enjoy someone's misery. I wanted to enjoy their pain but I did not wanted to commit sin. So every time I wanted to think of them being in pain, I wanted to smile but then I would stop myself saying that I should not smile when they would be in pain. I will get my revenge and there is no need to enjoy their misery after that. Leave them to pay the price. Enjoying it will only make me a barbarian.

This morning I was going through the same fight on my way back from a long walk.

Back home I waited for something to happen but nothing happened. When it was ten to nine, I thought it was better to check my mail and read the news.

When I opened my mail, there was a mail from one of my fiancees. I have been contacting her for the past few months now and she never once replied. Now she replied and told me to stop mailing her or she would inform the authorities. This was not new. It happened with me five years back when I started mailing my first fiance. I kept mailing her and its now five years and no athorities ever contacted me.

So I replied and thanked her for replying and politely asked her to go ahead and call whomever she wants to. Atleast that way I will be able to see her in person.

: )

Yes it was clear that I was being tested by Allah and in return I wanted to test Allah. It was clear that Allah had asked her to do this through Istakharas. I had been observing her through her blog and I knew that I was being tested in her case.

So I send her the mail and went back to my inbox. Every one gets spam and my inbox is no different. There were two of them. So I thought lets delete them. But before deleting them I read the subject line. The first one was a spam definitely so I moved on to the second one and it shocked me.

It was from some Berry Gonvey or something. The subject said,

"We are watching you"

The following is the matter,

"Your current activity within this nation has alerted us and deemed to be illegal. Your voip 03452314926 is being forwarded to your cities authorities. We have also contacted the Office of Homeland Security to your acts, which fall under the guidelines of the Patriot Act in which you are here notified.

Any further illegal behavioral attempts on your behalf will void all amnesty that has been granted to you so far.

Again, this is to let you know that we are exercising the powers granted to us by Congress through the Patriot Act (2001) do to your illegal behavior. We encourage you to cease with your actions."

You can imagine what it could have done to me. First my fiance writes what she wrote and then this. The time stamp suggested that the mail was written somewhere last night. The first thought that came to my mind was that may be whom I am calling my fiance isn't mine and she talked to someone since I mailed her yesterday morning and this really was from US authorities. So for few minutes I kept fighting my fear with logic. I kept telling myself this can't be. She is mine. I know that for sure. I have been observing her blog and she sure is changed.

So I kept fighting and as usual using logic Allah helped me and I was able to empty my system of the chemicals that were causing fear and started thinking. In Quran Allah says that those who are not faithfuls, when we test them they pray for my help and when I help them they they turn their backs and walk away, forgetting all that Allah had done for them. So I started thinking of my past and I just couldn't lie to myself that there was someone who was helping me. Who was leaving signs for me to see and observe. Yes I am 100% right.

I read the mail again and agian and there were some grammatic mistakes. Would an official make such mistakes? No way. Then I checked the address and bingo, it was a hotmail address.

A US official would never use an hotmail email address. They always use the address alotted to them through the server of their office, with .gov in the end.

So it was clear it was from my enemies.

Fuck them. They wanted to scare me and see if I would lead them to someone.

This still wasn't enough but my past was more than enough and I decided once again to trust Allah all the way.

So I replied and filled the mail with profanity that they won't forget for the rest of their lives. I told them who they are and what I am going to do to them. How I am going to cut them into pieces, pack them in suit cases that they are using to run out of Pakistan and burry them. I am sure my fuck of an uncle Naseem will read it too. And my words are going to scare that devil's asshole to death for sure, who is planning to run.

I promise you that.

Just wait as I am waiting and a sign will be left for us to see and observe and believe.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 6^th November 06

Stronger by one more, thanks Allah

A friend came to me few months back and wanted to know how to change his life. He was unhappy and frustrated. I sat with him and discussed his problems. In the end it was clear to me that he was living his life on a day to day basis.

He had no aim. Aim that is nucleus to hope which is the fuel our lives need.

But worse than this he couldn't decide if he should accept the concept of God or should he create his own God. He was being torn between the two.

I told him that he needed to get rid of that frustration. Either he believes in a God or he doesn't. I told him that this is his first step to a happier life.

I was willing to help him but I wanted him to decide on his own. What ever path he would have choosen I would have helped him. Showed him ways.

Even if he would have choosen a worldly thing, as his God.

Why?, because he is nice. A kind of person who wants to follow the law, do good, knows what sincerety is, who knows how to be honest and he is not hungry for this world.

I knew this and I knew that a daimond was in somewhere in there where I can't reach because I wasn't given the kowledge. But I knew that Allah knew and I knew Allah knew how to carve a faithful.

Thats why Allah has asked us to read Quran and it will teach us. Thats why we don't need a teacher to understand Quran.

So I just became a medium. What an honor.

And do you know, he is a hafiz(those who learn Quran by heart). And Allah didn't helped him because he had been reciting Quran in a language that he didn't understood. Arabic.

But now Allah has helped him as he has started reading a translation of Quran.

Yes Allah knows and it knows how to protect those who are good and how to unify them.

How to love them.

Yesterday he came to me again. Wanted to get one of his problems solved. I helped him. But more importantly I let him decide. I just showed him how to solve his problem and he solved it himself.

I was happy being only a medium.

After accepting God the second step to a happier life, I told him few months back was to have a wordly aim. A profession. Something that he loved or enjoyed or dreamed of.

Yesterday he walked on the path that I showed him and decided he wanted to be an archeologist. He is thirty and for him, he has just started his dreams. A new life. A rebirth.

In Quran we are ordered to be nice and help those who are good but lost.

I did the same and a soul has been carved into a jewel worth being the reason for the existance of heaven. Happiness is the key but Islam is the path.

And yes my dear, we are not alone.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 5^th November 06

Love it

Have been searching about one of my fiancees. Found her address and saw her house from google maps. That was cool. Just send her a pic of it.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 4^th November 06

I will rip your heart out, one by one, so get me if you can or dig up your own grave

So Novel and Microsoft have teamed up(via News.Linux.com and Siliconvalley).

Ok may be some people from Microsoft thought that Microsoft is getting in trouble and thought that Microsoft needs to be friends with the Open Source community.

So they forced some of their coworkers and Firefox team is welcomed at Redmond and then Microsoft attends a hackers conference. And now this.

I don't think that Microsoft will put their patented code into open source code and then will be able to blame other distributions for using it and through this hurt the Open Source revolution. No they won't be able to do it that openly.

And in an open letter from Novell and Mcirosoft, it was said that(via Novell),

"More importantly, Microsoft announced today that it will not assert its patents against individual, non-commercial developers. Novell has secured an irrevocable promise from Microsoft to allow individual and non-commercial contributors the freedom to continue open source development, free from any concern of Microsoft patent lawsuits. That's right, Microsoft wants you to keep hacking.

Why is Microsoft doing this? Because they recognize that customers today are deploying mixed source solutions - Windows and Linux - and they want these solutions to work well together. This will help Microsoft by making it easier for Linux customers to deploy Windows in their Linux environments. Microsoft is committing significant resources to promote joint Windows-Linux solutions. This is all about co-existence and giving customers greater choice."

Microsoft will recommend Novell's Suse Linux Enterprise to customers who want to run Windows with Linux and give maintenance and support. The two companies will also establish a joint research facility to help customers run the two operating systems side by side and also to make it easy to share documents between Microsoft's Office and its rival OpenOffice.

So it seems there is no need to worry.

But we must be careful. I want to think that Microsoft is just trying to help. But history is quite different.

In 1991 Jim Allchin of Microsoft who is the head of Windows 2000 department, mailed the following to Mr. Gates(via The Register),

"We must slow down Novell. ... As you said Bill, it has to be dramatic ... We need to slaughter Novell before they get stronger."

Yet in other mail in 1993 he said(via The Register),

"If you want to get serious about stopping Novell, we need to start understanding this is war-nothing less."

In 2001 Mr. Gates himself called GNU Public License that governs the use of Linux, a 'PacMan-like entity'(via Slashdot)

So some at Microsoft already know that they are at war and might lose. But what is it that Microsoft's lawyers are planning?

In 2001, Microsofts CEO Steve Ballmer called linux a cancer and used the following words(via Slashdot),

"a cancer that attaches itself in an intellectual property sense to everything it touches."

And the following is what Mr. Ballmer said recently about the Novell-Microsoft deal(via Siliconvalley),

"They said it couldn't be done. This is a new model and a true evolution of our relationship that we think customers will immediately find compelling because it delivers practical value by bringing two of their most important platform investments closer together,"

Either this is a big hypocrisy, which it seems to be or the man has changed since 2001.

And why is it that I smell hypocrisy here? In the event where this news was announced, Mr. Ballmer said(via Bloomberg),

"I will still insist the best choice is Windows, Windows, Windows... We're still competitors."

And I want to question this relationship because in the past Novell and Microsoft weren't just competitors, they were enemies.

Novell had an OS for servers known as 'Netware' that they gave up because it was unable to compete against Microsoft's Windows Server. In 2004 Microsoft paid Novell a sum of $536 million to settle an antitrust lawsuit. Novell still blames Microsoft for some other unethical acts.

And after the news of Microsoft and Novells teaming up, Novell's shares shot up 15.7% and Microsoft's shares went down by 4 cent(via Bloomberg).

The feeling that I am getting here is that Novell is just thinking of itself. Ok its business and Novell wants to earn money. So its fine.

But what I am wondering is, why is it that Microsoft wants to let its rivals take over some of its users's machines? Novell is clearly profiting from this but why Microsoft is accepting this loss?

The agreement clearly says that Microsoft won't sue non-comercial Linux developers but what about comercial distributors like Redhat.

Mr. Ballmer also said that(via Infowrold),

"The lawyers will collaborate to create an intellectual property "bridge" between open source and the priority source business models, taking into account all patent rights associated with that."

I am wondering what Microsoft will use that bridge for, because uptill now Redhat Linux was on the top but this deal will push Novell up and probably Redhat either down the list or completely out.

Is Microsoft sincerely trying to help or is it trying to help one of us, and will destroy the rest. Only time will tell.

I am still not against Windows and I don't mind it being used. It is just a product and I am not at jihad with business but from now onward I want to use, help and promote Linux and Apple in such a way that it allows us to defeat Microsoft and Zionists.

And I do not intend to give up. So beware.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 3^rd November 06

All is well

Nothing much. Still waiting. Lets see what happens.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 2^nd November 06

Another angle

My sister asked me to write something for my niece, Ramsha's debate contest. The topic was 'Even the devil seeks refuge from children'.

The following is what I wrote for her.

Children.

Yes, we really are very adorable. We are the life or our family. Every one wants to kiss us. Wants to talk to us. They laugh at our innocent acts and they love to talk about our mischieves to others.

Yes, our innocent mischieves become the reason for smiles of people.

Yes, I agree that sometimes they also become the reason for the anger of our mother but we children are not going to give up. Little punishment won't stop us from spreading smiles. And why should we give up when the devil itself fears us.

If you can't believe that than I will be more than happy to help you believe it.

When you make a mistake, other say 'see, didn't I told you not to do that, now pay the price.'

Just like this when the devil didn't obeyed God and sowre to mislead all humans, God in return, to irritate the devil, taught us children how to do mischieves.

For example if a child leaves his skates outside infront of the gate and that night the devil sends some theives to his house, do you what would happen? When the thieves would jump over the gate, one of them will fall on those skates and will slip. That will make a loud sound and that would be enough to wake the gaurd.

Is it not possible? It is definitely possible.

Will the devil like this? It will not becuase all his hard work just got lost.

Sickness, it makes us human very weary. And in such condition, it becomes very difficult for humans to be thankful to Allah for It's blessings. And this is what the devil wants too that we humans may never thank God. But when the sick person sees his children and enjoys their innocent and funny talk, it becomes far more easier for him to thank God.

Will the devil be happy with this? Never.

Children are very honest. And the devil hates this. It works so hard to make the adults believe that its important to lie. And many times adults lied under the influence of the devil we children saved them from hell by telling the truth.

Yes, we children are a very big blessing of Allah and a very big need of you adults who are the biggest victim of the devil. For that very reason you sometimes seek refuge from us.

And because of this I say that the devil seeks refuge from chlidren.

I guess too much truth. I hope she wins.

: )

Free the society of such sin

After my findings of our Prime Minister Shaukat Aziz and Citibank, I thought that it was time you guys who have your money in Citibank, withdrew it and transfer it to some other bank.

I know that its just money but its alot of it and it can do alot good being somewhere else. And also that if there are two similar services, one being offered by your enemy and one from your own people, and if its easy, its better to pay for the srevice that is being given by your people.

Regarding banks, today most of them work on interest which is not allowed in Islam. Its a sin and we all should anoid it. So it would appropriate to find a bank that doesn't works on interest. In Pakistan I know that Mezan bank doesn't works on interest. I myself have an account there. I have researched them and I trust their management to invest money into things that are not against Islam.

So please find banks that don't work on interest. If you are unable to find any such bank, than its better to keep money at home in different forms. Currency, gold, property, stocks and shares. But I am sure you will find either a bank that doesn't works on interest or a locker at some bank.

Helping Allah

I have no sins and I have no intentions of commiting any sins. So all my basic needs are being fulfilled by Allah. When the time will come I will start earning too. I am earning right now. I have got Rs.25 in my account and they are invested in bank's business on the condition that if the bank lost money I will have to share the loss.

I would have withdrew this money too but doing so would close my account and I don't want that.

So right now I have no money to spend on my needs. And since my family and I are not on friendly terms, I don't ask them for anything.

But with all this Allah has never kept me hungry. Yes I had to wait but I never slept on an empty stomach. The food was always there. And still is.

My little sister helped me alot. I know that alot of men would not accept that they are being helped by their little sister but I don't think like that. I never asked her to give me food. She would ask me if I wanted to eat with her and I would accept it. Its a blessing and we all should thank for the blessings that come our way rather than reject them. In the beginning my ego did make some noises but I killed it with logic for good. And the fact that I saw my sister as a human and not as a weak woman, helped me alot in defeating the devil.

Twice I did asked her to give me some water, thinking that this way I would get some cold water. But I was wrong. I asked for forgiveness because in Quran we are order to ask only Allah to fulfill our needs.

And sometimes friends would invite me. But food was always there.

Previously when I had the money, I used to ask my friends and my sister to come with me and we would go out to eat. I never used to worry about spending too much. I always thought that I was spending it in the way of Allah. I wanted them to learn and in Quran we are ordered to be nice with faithfuls of all levels. I wanted to show them my love so that they would see that I meant well. So that they would listen me and prepare in the right way for heaven.

But for the past few days I felt that I shouldn't spent money on my friends and my sister since I don't earn and I need to first fulfill my needs. I thought that not fulfilling my needs first would be a sin. And this worried me alot since my friends and my sister were very nice with me and I wanted to payback. And also that I don't like being alone. I don't like to eat alone. It becomes very hard for me to live like that. I am living like that and I don't like it. But I accept it since its for justice. In the way of Allah. For the best place in heaven. The king of heaven.

But today I was blessed.

Next time I get money, I will spend it on my friends and on my loved ones. I won't go alone. You now why? because I am ordered to teach them slowly and love them. And Because its my need not to eat alone.

So for that I would spend regardless of how much money I have.

Girls please reply and lets meet

I used to think that men and women can't have friendships. Yes they can't. Normally there shouldn't be friendship between men and women.

I did not wanted to commit adultry and because of that I accepted it and thought that even those who want to marry each other can't have a friendship.

But for the past few days I have been thinking about this alot as I want to meet my fiancees. And now that I have thought about it from different angles, Allah has helped me.

In quran Allah says that women should talk to men in a tone that is not welcoming. So that if any man has some wrong intentions, he shouldn't get encourgement.

Allah also says that a men and a women should not be alone.

Further It tells us that we should not go even near adultry. Meaning that anything leading to adultry is wrong too.

So I just assumed that all this stands for those too who want to marry.

But in Quran Allah also says that if you want to marry a women and you think about her, you won't be blamed.

Now men and women are not stopped from interacting with each other.

So I was thinking that those who want to marry will interact too. Then what. Allah already said that a man and a women should not be alone. So those who love each other will not meet at other than public places. So if there are people around them they won't be commiting adutlry. This will help them stay away from adultry.

Getting married is a need and every one wants that. And it only makes sense that in this case a woman will talk nicely to her suiter bucause it would be very difficult for a man to love a women who doesn't talks in a way that is not rude but is not welcoming either. Every women would be like that for him but once he proposes, after that if his choosen woman likes him, she would change her tone.

Its only natural.

So if those who want to marry each other want to have a friendship, they can. But they should only meet at public places, women should hide their hairs and their bodies, they should not touch each other, they can express their feelings but should not forget that they can only act after marriage.

We have been blessed.

O'TanoKey, its my blog's life. 1^st November 06

My email to the Mozilla corporatoin through their Spread Firefox Forum(follow the link to read the responses)

In the name of Allah,

Asalaam O Alaikum,

Dear Firefox team,

I am an open source advocate. I am very much in love with open source concept. Open source gives a meaning to the word freedom what sleep is to the word rest.

I strongly believe that quality costs money and I know for sure that almost every one wants to pay for quality. But if quality can be given cheap, I would prefer that, since it will only make an average person's life easier.

I have been using firefox for the past three years and I love it. I want it to be on every desktop. In every school and on every tablet. I want people to know that its possible to do a good deed without being selfish. That its possible to give something for free and still make some money.

That good and love can achieve certain big things in life.

And that, little is more.

I don't agree but I do respect your right of copyrighting your logo.

I believe that copyrighting the name 'Firefox' is enough to make open source a household name and something that can be associated with quality.

Its your property and you can do what ever you want with it. And I also see the act of copyrighting YOUR logo as something very, very and imensely very small compared to what firefox is already doing for open source.

And here I would like to thank you and congratulate you for your efforts and your love for open source.

As an advocate of all those things that would make an average man's life easier, with a lot of respect and love, I would like to make a request.

Please try to help the Debian community. They need you. We need you. The world needs Open source and freedom. Among this community there are very nice and faithful followers of open source and they can contribute alot to firefox's fame by improving it and by distributing it.

I am not a Debian user but I am like them. A linux user. Linux that started the revolution we now know as Open Source. It needs you.

I know now that its not possible for you to free your logo. I would prefer that but its your decision and I respect that.

So I think that it would be appropriate to create another logo that is under copyleft. A logo that is very slightly different from the original logo. I want every one to use firefox and love its fox around the globe logo.

Once again thanks.

Sincerely yours,
A firefox user.